Firstly, I am busy most of the year with school. Secondly, when I am not busy with school, I am busy with conventions and working on my own projects. Thirdly, I'm just lazy lol
But really, the main reason I don't want to do commissions is... I just don't enjoy doing them for extended periods of time. I mean, unless they are characters I already know and love, I know I'll either end up spending too long on them without producing the desired result, or just end up half-assing them to avoid that from happening in the first place lol...
Drawing is something I want to enjoy doing. I fear that if I don't enjoy what I draw, I'm going to end up getting tired of drawing, period. I don't want to lose myself from the one thing I am relatively good at. Commissions can really suck the soul out of an artist's drawings... I don't quite know what I mean by "soul", but it's that extra oomf that lures and captivates people. I've seen this happen in other people who do commissions for a long long time... Sometimes, they seem to even degrade in skill. I don't know, I don't want my pieces to imbue "I don't give a f*ck anymore".
This is why I am reluctant on pursuing the art industry. I don't trust myself to be able to artistically thrive in a commercially demanding environment.
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Mood:
Shame
I still want to try commissions and have been wanting to for a long time, because I'm really poor
But.. I'm still thinking of doing something art related for money. I ended up in psychology major since I stayed away from art and now I kinda feel stuck because I really don't care enough about psych to really pursue it. How do you choose between doing something you love as your job, or keeping your love sacred? :<
On that note, making a character fit the artist's interest is hard. I try to keep my characters simple since most of the artists I commission like to have a simple base from which to work with, but on the other hand, so many people have trouble with simple characters since they feel constricted since they have nothing they can work with.
What I'm trying to say is, as a person who has commissioned left and right in the internet, if going through with it will cause you unwanted trouble, it will show in the final result, so I can understand if you don't want to offer them. And all who will beg/bother and otherwise annoy you about it should shut the fuck up.
I'm actually pursuing animation to prevent myself from being forced into a job where I HAVE to create my own stuff and work with my characters.
With animation, I can help others achieve their dreams, and work on projects that I feel proud of. And because I'll be working like mad somethings, and barely working others, I'll have a lil bit of time here and there to work on what I want, but not have to rely on those things as my main cash flow.
I see some artist, like Lucy Knisely or Claire Belton, and I think I want to like, crawl in their brains XD and figure out how they do what they want, make money off it, and remain sane.
I wish I could get paid for drawing whatever I wanted. That'd be great.